* I, myself to this day when I go into our Chan Qi — our intensive retreats, my body aches so much and hurts so much. * You cannot imagine how painful my body felt — to this day. * But on a regular day like this when I sit with you like this for an hour I feel very good. * That means for an hour — I wasted my time for an hour. * I have to sit for … over 10 hours a day for weeks before my body starts hurting. * It get worst and worst and worst. * Could even you know you sit you know I know you’re supposed to sit and you’re supposed to sit like a bell and stuff like that. * My body hurts so much I I couldn’t even sit straight. * That’s how sick my body is. * That’s the proof right there. * But as soon as I cut down, as soon as I scale back on my meditation sits, then I can sit normal and be happy again. * So that means that when you practice hard, you’re fixing the illness at a very deep level. * I assure you the doctors cannot see those illness — not possible, not measurable! * Okay? * So I speak from experience for you, I tell you … * Okay. * The discomfort you experience right now for an hour is like my discomfort — what I experience after ten weeks, or ten … ten days.