Jens Italia – CHRISTMAS MEDITATION

Jens Italia – CHRISTMAS MEDITATION


Well I’m taking as much to do video Why what I do have to thank that here in this on this floor because there is internet access is included with the payment then to me for me this is a blessing to have this internet and on this floor despite the noise despite the traffic that there are cars It has also helped a lot because thanks to this internet that on this floor with noise and everything I was inspired here and not here I created my channel and here I started develop me is going to create videos to develop because in that medium of youtubers and all that and well as you can see my videos because they are some dark others with colors the dark walls well after painted white water was painted 20 white walls and nothing then of now I could say see the light but I am very very grateful for the time that I will be here because with the economy that I have and that I have many problems now many economic problems things I’m terrified I am terrified because I am terrified human and I feel like in a no man’s land just as I feel like I am in the desert that I am alone and in the looks of from Not being in the sand mill because I’m as lost as lost I have to make sense of my life and find a way because I have to do it because if God no you don’t want to take me anymore I have to try to do my best to improve my mood and my economy which is what worries me most I don’t want to pass it from there I don’t know where I’m going from here I don’t have friends I don’t have family I can go knock on the door stop because it’s another thing that living with someone is also very karma and it’s a problem because if you don’t know what it is you, I think it’s that the dead man on the third day and love already weighs when a person is visiting a house on the third day and until it starts you will pills he wants what he wants me to become the servant of his house for you you don’t do anything one thing that we are going to have done because if you want to collect the floor as of place and already and concrete then that seems to me an abuse people abuse people like it quite be family be friends be whatever people always abuse always take advantage of the situation look everyone takes advantage of a person who is of when a person is down everyone wants to trample the when I am with the tree that falls because everything does not want to make firewood afterwards, because I have already hurt it I have lived it and I still live it to me people have always had the luxury of humiliating me yes relatives friends and I tell them if I still live them because sometimes for a bite a plate of food this dish of food humiliates you, it will cost you it will cost you tears of blood because they have to pay it and I really like it all my life since I have reason I have always been alone because I grew up alone I grew up alone without fathers and mothers without brothers without anything I I’m practically here because of that people abuse me and take advantage but I got tired of that I already got tired of it so many things that have happened to me so much again that required for free I already say here just this I am already tired and tired and I don’t want to know more I don’t want to know the problem anymore I don’t want to be longer if you kind of pay you an external debt and I don’t if I don’t owe anyone anything more than they owe me they owe me they owe me nothing to anyone everything I could give in this I already opened it Tired up to the expense of my health because I almost lost a lot of everything but I It is acting so because God does not want me all help and I have a mission that I do not know with the mission I will see most ways that pass the days see and what is my mission well then we have and I am now trying to be positive and not and I try as much as possible to say that you don’t go with jermaine or of not falling off the piano of not in sad external but the inevitable because unfortunately I have a heart that beats and pumps blood I would like the truth to choose between a heart and a metal I choose the metal I would like to have a metal heart so as not to feel pain or anguish or worry or anything and that everything they tell me what they do although it doesn’t matter to me that it doesn’t hurt that I don’t feel unfortunately I have a heart that beats and runs blood but I’m going to try to block that I’m going to block that because I’ve already suffered so much I don’t want to suffer anymore I want my heart to be metal I don’t want to feel any kind of feeling because everything affects me and the people who take advantage so I don’t want to, I don’t want to because I have already been very good and I have been a very good person generous action I have stopped eating for the one that I have fed my enemy if you understand me the nude festival, God’s laws are fulfilled is careful I have cured the sick I have dressed the naked fed the hungry He has fed my enemy even though they bit my hand but I got tired of it and I don’t want it anymore I got married, I don’t want it anymore I don’t want it anymore I don’t want to do this fool anymore that everyone tramples that everyone wants to abuse That was enough for me if I have to sleep in the street tomorrow Sleeping in the street when I was little I slept outside a church I had no parents they didn’t have there because they let me throw something away they abandoned me in the world then if I’m an adult now playing and if I could overcome death because I practically I was on board for a while Super If I can be able to overcome death and I am medieval because something waiting for me but if I have to I have money to pay for an apartment and it’s my turn to go outside since I do it because I can make more can I do I am going to use all my resources I 4 use all the tools that I have in my hand to get out of this crisis because I am I am deeply in a crisis and that makes me very bad i have a depression horrible but I try to come and I don’t want to cry anymore I don’t want anymore I don’t even want to think I just want to sleep and wake up have day and pepsi know that my life will change but nothing can be done if you don’t move the threads yourself I have to move the threads I can’t leave you all goodbye because obviously God He says I’ll help you help yourself that is the dilemma of the Holy Bible well because I’m premiering new makeup and I love them with a gift that gave me family well I am poor I have not given anyone’s gift I do not know how long I love this palette It has many colors, these are the ones I’m wearing, I put on the black one a little TV here in this good this pink mixed with white Lecca here and after a bit of this here to good heart I have another well is right now on the market now too They are like to vary during the day because they are with their matt colors and I love beautiful metal and I’m here too You are already here also that they are colors are also between matte and shine but they are pastel Many long time makeup does not want to beat art much well the question of the videos because I have to invent already wild makeups to not allow so much with that with the a with the face very like very off and there I love it I like the colors and colors do not as for the day well and here is also this amazing these are colors mars and this as to get fast so that not to see the face everything gives me this night ghost because with this it already conceals you a bit and these are gifts from a relative Thank you left so good i don’t have money I am poor and appreciates that I love I liked this one as for the videos because in the videos on the camera to the makeup I know how it pays it gets like it should here where you see me I have 80,000 layers of cleopatra below it from this platinum axis you don’t move the amount of shadow when the people who do makeup tutorials already know I really are this tutorial I do not believe because I put on makeup and see something something makeup I take a lot then no and I’m going to make the bear apart because you have to practice this is a matter of practicing every day I’m now practicing good because the band I had this palette look I use enough in the base so I can not see dark circles I will not see her face pale are you where is this middle part that there is nothing anymore because I gave it hard and this also because the illuminators are the bases well everything is the chain what I love who also already used and had no longer had and I liked them right now the documents are more basis for the face and labial not have but above the economy how they are tightening well this this makeup this palette fell from heaven because the truth is that if I don’t put on makeup to make video, people regret that I’m moving so good thanks good and mary cristman and new world and merry christmas to everyone and much love and may god bless you I

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